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I can feel the weet sense of security pulling away from me,
As my grasp on sanity slowly slips through my fingers.
Unable to revers the destruction that has already begun,
I stand here helpless to the disaster that I am becoming.
I am slipping back into the darkness where I once resided,
Where I would hide from the world around me.
The seduction of that dark chaos calls to me,
Luring me deeper into its insidious lair.
As I become one with the monster that is inside of me,
My thoughts become vicious and my heart grows cold.
The thought of hope becomes too weak to guide me through the darkness,
And the remaining light begins to fade out.
I am losing this battle I have been fighting for so long,
I have steadily grown weaker but my monster has grown stronger.
I am desperately clinging onto the tinyest thread of sanity,
Yet no matter how tightly I hold on it still manages to elude me.
Desperation takes over when depression consumes me so entirely,
There is nothing else that matters more than regaining my sanity.
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There once was a kid,
Who was extremely depressed,
She was broken inside,
But nobody could haved guessed.
She owned her saddness,
Making it her bitch,
She told it when to come out,
And how to be expressed,
Not once did this monster dare to break free,
She was so brave and so strong,
Nothing could bring her down.
This little girl had so much to live for,
She had everything and more.
Until one day she lost it all,
In just one moment it was gone.
She was heartbroken and weaked,
And the monster made its move,
The walls she had built so strong,
Came crashing down,
And the darkness consumed her,
Vowing to never let her go.
She became a slave to this monster,
Her body became its host,
As this little girl got sucked deeper and deeper,
She got lost in self hate.
“How could i be so stupid,
To let this happen to me!”
She tried to fight back as hard as she could,
But her efforts were useless,
And soon she grew weary,
Thats when hopelessness began to set in.
She became cold and shut off,
Hating everything about life,
Until finally she reached out,
So desprate for help.
The help saved her for a while,
Shining some light onto her darkness,
And she began to fight once more,
Determined to take her life back.
The battle continued for years with no end,
The monster never seemed to tire,
As the little girl grew exhaused,
She fought and she fought,
But wasnt getting anywhere.
That all too familiar hoplessness had set in,
She still fought the monster,
But her efforts were weak,
She was giving up on life,
Because there was no hope for escape,
That little girl realized that the battle would never end,
She gave up on herself,
And surrendered to her monster within.
The worst part of my depression isn’t the horrible feelings, It’s my inability to accurately express them.
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you fall for the lies that i hide behind;
you look into my eyes,
and see what you want to see,
the smiles and the cheer.
but did you know that on the inside,
i am sick and dying,
holding on by a mere thread,
grasping for air,
crying out for the last time,
making my last attempt at an S.O.S.
you see my mask that i have so skillfully decorated,
but have you ever thought too look behind it?
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It tears me apart,
Learning we were just a lie,
It wasn’t real from the start,
There was never anything there to let die.
I thought we were it,
You and I would have it all,
The best it could ever get,
I never thought we would fall.
Man was i wrong,
It was all just a game,
You had me fooled all along,
Now I will never be the same.
I am broken and cold,
Lost in the wreckage you left behind,
From all the truths left untold,
Leaving me totally blind.
You broke my heart, mother fucker,
And you never truly cared,
Proving I’m just a sucker,
Never to be repaired.
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this pain inside me is what i fought my whole life to protect myself from,
i promised myself i would never fall into the trap that everyone else so gladly runs into,
i have known from a young age this life will never be a fairy tale,
I wasnt going to be that foolish girl to believe that there was a happily ever after;
from early on i knew true love does not exist, at least not for me,
yet somehow you came into my life, and i fell so hard and so fast for you,
no matter how hard i tried i couldn’t stop getting sucked deeper and deeper in.
i knew from the start, i had fallen into a painful trap, but i couldn’t resist.
now looking back, i am the fool i fought my whole life to avoid,
my heartbeat is so weak i can barely feel the pulse,
i dont know how much longer it will beat without your love,
the love that brought my heart out of the darkness and denial,
your love brought me into a world i truly believed to be a fantasy;
and now im back to where i began, scrambling to put myself back together,
but its harder knowing from experience that something so beautiful exists,
and convincing myself that i will never have it again.
On the verge of a relapse,
Not sure what to do,
Part of me wispers,
“Don’t give up,
You will get it all one day.”
But these voices inside me,
These mother fucking demons,
Are screaming at me,
“You’re a pathetic fool,
Call it quits and give in!”
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if this was my last day on earth,
would it matter, would you care,
is there anyone out there,
that would spend my final hours with me?
if this was my last day on earth,
would anybody stand by my side,
holding my hand with pride,
as i wander into the great unknown?
if this was my last day on earth,
would i have to face my death alone?
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ive realized that yes, i am depressed,
i miss you more than my words can express.
the sorrow i feel deep inside me,
is far to great for anyone to see.
i feel so empty deep within,
inside my heart where you have always been.
i hate to stop and watch you go,
because i love you more than you even know.
my heart hardly beats without you,
what once was one has now become two.
you are my soulmate, my other half,
without you i have forgotten how to laugh.
you always made me feel complete,
with you gone i always feel so beat.
baby i miss you with all my heart,
i hate having this distance and being apart.
every day i hope and pray,
that things will turn out our way.
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